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جاءنا البارحة خطاب من هيئة قضائية بسبب بعض المشاكل فى العمارة.. المهم.. لقد صعقت من اللغة المكتوبة.. فإما ان الكاتب كان طالب ابتدائى.. أو أنه أجنبى.. وإنى أعتقد أنه لو كان أجنبيا.. لكان سلم من هذه الأخطاء الفادحة.. فكيف يكون الحكم القضائى الذى هو بطبيعة الحال يستخدم أبلغ الكلمات ويعرف من النحو والبلاغة ما قد يجعله شاعرا وناقدا أدبيا.. وهو المشهور بقدرته على انتقاء أرقى المعانى.. يكون قد وصل لهذه الركاكة.. بل وبالأخطاء الاملائية!!!

حقا انها صدمة.. ويا لها من صدمة.. فتأملوا معى هذه الأخطاء الاملائية...

انة فى يوم ../../.. تم الحكم فى هذة القضيه...............  وقد تم أبلاغ المنذر والمنذر ألية بحكم الأستئناف..............

وكان من المفروض أن تكون هذه الكلمات كالتالى..

أنه فى يوم ../../.. تم الحكم فى هذه القضية...............  وقد تم إبلاغ المنذر والمنذر إليه بحكم الإستئناف..............

لا أدرى هل المشكلة فى.. أم انها أصبحت مشكلة أمة.. أمة لا تعرف الفرق بين الهاء والتاء المربوطة.. أمة لا تعرف الفرق بين المواضع المختلفة للهمزة.. أمة لا ترى عيبا فى كتابة "لاكن (لكن)..... نحنوا (نحن) ....... هاذة (هذه) ....." ولك من الأمثال الكثير والكثير..

فنحن تهاونا فى هويتنا.. وفى لغتنا.. وفى ديننا.. وفى كل شئ.. حتى فى أرضنا.. ماذا بقى أيضا  لنتهاون فيه؟!!!

Whenever you will expect..
You will feel so much pain..
Whenever you decide to accept..
Do not start to blame..
Although one may wish for things..
Which may be nonsense for your partner
Don't consider it nonsense..
Because this is your partner..
When you need him/her the most..
You will feel alone and lost..
When you wait for a word..
You feel stabbed with a sword..
When you expect the least of the least..
You will get nothing.. not even that least..
Don’t expect he/she will give so that you won't ask..
Because it is an impossible task..
Sometimes you feel you should stop giving..
Otherwise you will spend the rest of your life forgiving..
Do you really expect too much?!

It is time to accept.. not to expect

Don't take away my only chance
Don't judge after a quick glance
Don't take away hope
Don't leave me hung with a torn rope
Don't forget the days we spent
Don't give away what you were lent
Don't you know it is very precious
Don't you stop being superstitious
Don't kill me with your silence
It's so painfull.. That sound of silence..
Don't think it's that simple
Don't think I won't tremble
Don't think I don't care
Can't you see it's unfair
Why don't you try to give me your trust
Why do you insist to treat me as dust
Don't you consider me something
Don't you feel anything
You made me forget the way to smile
You made my heart forget what's happiness
You made me see darkness for over a thousand mile
You filled my heart with sadness
You kill me a million times every single day
Why.. why.. why..
I wonder when this pain will stop..

They look to me as if they were ashamed

Why am I always blamed

For sins I never made

For  words I never said

For orders I may forget

For things I do regret

Why don't they understand

I always do my best

I badly need some rest

My whole life is a test

I feel like an unwelcomed guest

Will they notice me if I went west

Why do they keep loading me

Why do I always feel depressed

I am sick of the stones over my chest

Whatever I do they won't be impressed

They think I am a silly jest

I wish to be a free bird in his nest

Will I ever find peace

I doubt..

I remember when I was in school, I used to complain for the distance we travelled.. It was whole 20mins to get back from school till I reach home.. My parents used to drive me to school.. I did not face any problems to reach school.. But I considered it a long drive at that time.. Also, I had nothing else to do except studying.. I had no kids.. no work.. no training.. and of course no hanging out with friends!! I was a young kid.. But I complaint about the traffic from my own point of view.. I saw it a waste of time for me.. I could have played anything during these large 20mins to reach home from school!

Days passed.. I grew a little bit older.. I became in university.. I realized that what I used to face while being in school was nothing.. It was nothing compared to college.. In college, I had to stay there for more than 8 hours per day.. Of course not everyday, but at least 3 days a week.. I had to waste more time to go from home to university back and forth.. It took me around 30 ~ 45 mins to reach the university depending on the traffic and the means of transportation I am taking.. I was also pissed off because of the traffic.. Because it took me so long to find a taxi or a bus to take me home.. I felt this is a great waste of time.. I had to spend so much time in the streets.. At that time, I had lots to do besides studying.. I was training.. I was hanging out with friends.. I had some home duties.. And I always felt that this time wasted in the streets is too long.. I also felt that this is the worst thing that could ever happen to me..!

Days passed.. After four years.. I graduated.. I started to work.. This is when it became a real mess.. The 30 mins to get home became a dream!! I am now spending at least 3 hours everyday stuck in the streets! I have so much more to do.. I am working for at least 9 hours EVERYDAY.. Plus these 3 ~ 3.5 hours in the traffic.. I am supposed to be training.. I am supposed to go out with friends.. I am supposed to be studying for my exams.. Plus I am engaged.. So, there should be some little time for my finacee.. Of course there is one major fact.. Which is "I have to sleep everday"!! Do you feel that this is getting worse? I don't know anymore if this is really the worse that could happen or there is anything much more worse than this! I guess as long as time goes on.. as long as days passes.. Things are getting harder.. Time spent in the streets are getting longer.. Duties are getting larger and more time consuming.. But I have to do them all.. Sometimes I cancel some of these duties for the sake of others.. But this way I am taking over my needs as a human..

For instance, I reduced the training to once every one or two weeks!! I reduced the days to meet friends to once every couple or three weeks.. This kills me.. I am even seeing my parents living with me in the same house only on fridays.. Even sometimes I don't have this chance to meet them on fridays!! These habits are replaced with studying.. Working.. Staying in the streets ! At last here comes my fiance.. Sometimes I try to create 10 MINUTES for us to meet.. But can you sense the number!! 10 minutes!! WOW!! What a life!

Later on, I would say "Days passed.." But I don't want to imagine how things are going to get worse than this! Just imagine it when I am married, having kids and more work loads and even more traffic!! Oh .. I cannot even think about it.. Future is better when it is unknown.. I just know that whatever I face at this time.. It is better than the future.. Days always make things harder..

How come that we spend most of our lives going from place to another that way !! I cannot believe that my life became that way.. I feel that I have to choose between two things.. Either work what I love to do and stop having a life.. Or have a life and working anything which I do not like..

I am currently working in smart village. Meanwhile, I am living on the other side of the city.. I spend AT LEAST 3 hours everyday stuck in the traffic.. This sounds really nuts.. By multiplying this five times a week.. This gives around 15 hours.. This means that I spend one whole day stuck in the traffic! I am just stuck and cannot move anywhere.. cannot read anything because of the dark.. cannot sleep because of the noise.. cannot get out and walk.. It’s a 30Km way!! I am just stuck.. I think everyone faced this problem..

This is one of the major reasons for depression.. Wasting all of that time for nothing!! The worst of this is that I return home so late.. so tired.. not able to go to run or do any other social activity.. Simply this way of living is strengthening the fact that I am turning to a machine more and more..

I seriously thought to live the whole week somewhere nearby work and return back home on the weekends!! This sounds nuts.. But it is a solution.. I also thought to leave work.. But I did not find anywhere else having a similar position which I like.. I try everyday to make use of the time I spend on the road.. But I hardly can make anything of what I want.. It is hard to concentrate whether you are driving.. or you are in a terrible bus..

 It has been so long since I last wrote anything.. It was always because of the terrible traffic.. But I will try to write again.. I wish to find something useful to do during these three hours everyday.. I have to figure out..

I haven't got a clue
For What I should do
Why am I in pain
Why am I insane

Shall I Turn left or go right
Or simply remain on my way
May be choosing is not my right
I don't know if I should stay

The bond was so tight
Same confusion every single day
Is that bond still that tight
I no longer know what to say

Is this how my life shall be
Am I who I was meant to be
Is there something I cannot see
May be this is how my life shall be

Is it me or you
Or may be it's us the two..
Is this real or fake..
May be it's just a mistake..

No it can't be wrong..
You are the reason why I am strong..
You are the only one in my song..
I know it is not wrong..

I badly need a clue
If you are still here or not
I need to know what to do
Shall I give up or not!

I was drunk for so long
I thought, for you I belong
Then, when I got sober
When I found it's over
No more you in my life
I don't deserve this life
The truth was so tough
You told me it's enough
As if it was a game
I will never be the same
Nothing you did for my sake
As if all that time was fake
I am accused for a thousand mistake
All of them.. I have never done
I will not take the blame
Set me free.. leave me run
I am no longer the same

All that hatred and devine
All these changes without a sign
You are no longer mine
I can never feel fine

I was used to miss you all time
Before I sleep and with the sunshine
Now, I am a victim of your crime
You do not care.. Not even a sign

You stabbed me with a knife
You took away my life
I don't know what to believe
I feel so much loss and grief

I have not asked for too much
All I asked for was a tender touch
Me, you could not clutch
I feel I've given up too much

You asked for support..for time..
I will give you all of these..
But only for sometime
You have to rescue me.. Please
 

Life is too hard for me
I don't know what I want to be
Whenever I try to have rest
I find myself in another test

Life is an endless circle
To get out.. I need a miracle

No more support.. No more help

No more hands.. No more help

All my friends are suddenly gone
None of my goals are actually done
No more life.. No more fun
No more happy days under the sun

Don't teach me to swim on the land
and leave me alone in the deepest seas
It is hard for me to go alone
I need you here or I will drown

After each phone call
Your voice captures my soul
You take me as a whole
You conqure me all

I feel like I never felt before
I feel so much pleasure
I feel you within my body core
You are my real treasure

I love your voice.. Your laugh
The fact you are my second half
I love your words.. Your smile
The way I feel you over a mile

I love your eyes.. Your stare
The way our eyes mistakenly lock
I love your love.. Your care
In my life.. you're really stuck!

I cannot focus anymore
I cannot think like before
I used to be smart
Now I am a piece of art
Better put me on the shelf
I really lost my self
I no longer see the future
I no longer belong to a culture
Life is so still
Nothing is changed
Nothing makes me thrill
Myself.. is no longer myself
That adventerous spirit
I feel I badly lost it
That romantic soul
I really lost it all
That innocent stare
That flowing care!!
I lost everything..
I badly need anything!

 With me, you're wasting time
For me, it's the worst crime
It's not chemistry or physics
It's just the manners basics

You said you're serious
But all that time you're hilarious
In you, I am no longer curious

I feel drowning in the mud
Besides I'm covered with blood
I believe non of what you said

Because of you I feel horrible

Believe me, I feel terrible

My life is totally unbearable

More time, you won't get

I will win, I do bet
All your mistakes, you'll regret

You think I am talking in vain
You already destroyed my brain
This time, I am not talking in vain
I will make you see and feel the pain